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Okay, everyone was right. The scene where Bucky buys plums was just. The best.

And you could just see the old Bucky there, someone charismatic and sweet and charming. He’s not his past self again, for sure, but there’s a lot of him still there.

And I’d just love to see what his life was like before all the shit hit the fan. I want to know if he went after HYDRA at all, I want to know if he made any friends in Bucharest, if he knew anyone there. I want to see him writing in his notebook and learning to cope with his trauma, I want to see him trying new things while regaining old ones and just getting to decide who Bucky is.

Basically I want another two-hour film of Bucky’s post-HYDRA domestic life.

• Bucky’s hair is shorter in CACW, and it has more of a shape to it. When did he decide to get it cut? Did he do it himself or did the Winter Soldier seek out the aid of a hairstylist? 
• Likewise, he’s bigger. Beefier. He’s been working out. I want to see Bucky working out. I NEED to see Bucky working out.
• Does he put his hair back in a cute little ponytail when he works out? 
• Does he ever put his hair in a ponytail just because?
• When did he start putting together that notebook? What else is in it? What were the first memories Bucky started to recover? Seriously, I need an in-depth look at that notebook and the process of its creation.
• Does Bucky show outward signs of trauma? Does he have nightmares, breakdowns, periods of dissociation? What do his panic attacks look like? How do his guilt and horror manifest throughout his recovery? What caused his first genuine smile? What gives him hope that he can be a person again, whole and happy? What gives him a reason to keep going?
• The plum scene made me want to see Bucky rediscovering food. I want to see him learning to take pleasure in eating. I want to see him immersed in a simple kind of bliss just from cooking dinner by himself after a long day (even if he fucks up the first few meals he attempts.) I want to see Bucky taking a bite out of something he’s really unprepared for, like wasabi, then making a face and spitting it out like a toddler.
• Bucky trying to reach out to people but being scared of putting them in danger. Being scared, too, that they’ll find out who he really is and then they’ll hate him for it.
• Bucky managing to be outgoing and charming some of the time anyway. Bucky reclaiming parts of his life when he can.
• BUCKY. MORE BUCKY.

I would seriously watch a film consisting of nothing more than Bucky confusedly wandering around for two hours in real time immediately following pulling Steve from the river.

BUT YES THIS ALL OF THIS.

Thank heaven for fanfic.

Part of the issue with CACW was the fact that no one seemed to question what Bucky had been up to for the past two years. Not even Steve. Like there was never any quiet moment for someone to ask how he was really coping or for Steve to be like

“Hey buddy, what were you up to all that time.”

“Well, I learned what srachia is and Youtube has been very useful.”

I mean not even that.

I would pay actual money to see an entire movie of Bucky rediscovering food and popular culture.

Those notes in his notebook. Some of them are memories from the past, but some of them, I’m guessing, are notes on how to live now. And because Bucky doesn’t really have anyone to talk to, it becomes almost a diary in places.

 New discovery: Oreos. Additional reason to keep living.

2013 VMA: possible missing context?    ????? 

Knope 2012!!!

Investigate potential shift in linguistic structure and dialect. To research: phrases ‘none pizza with left beef’ ‘amaze’ ‘zodiac killer’. 

I don’t understand the hype about kale. May be time to leave the U.S. Partly to keep my cover. But mostly need to find better food. Will miss pizza.

Y’all need this fic in your lives (X)

if this hadn’t ended with that link i’d have had to put it there.