lookninjas:

21.

Today I practiced
pushing through,

which is something
I used to be
good at

a little too good,
probably, I used to push
a little too hard
sometimes, struggled

to back down.

But I’ve lost a lot
of that talent, so

today I worked
on getting a little back.

It was a struggle
at the start, but
by the end, I found
it even harder to stop,
so.

I’d like to think I’ll have
myself back by the end,
stupid and stubborn
and fucking relentless

and all those things that
have always gotten me in trouble

I said I wanted trouble
anyway.

I’d like to think I started
some today.