Tag: autismproblems

~just little dyspraxia things~

pervocracy:

thepolyamorouspolymath:

pervocracy:

  • i did not tell my hand to throw that thing. i told it to gently pick up the thing. but i guess it decided throwing was better.
  • boyfriend has gotten very used to sudden crashes and screams followed by cheerful yell of “i’m okay!”
  • or not.  bones broken so far: collarbone, wrist, finger, rib, toe.
  • elbows & knees bend backwards. good party trick.
  • every dance or aerobics lesson sounds like “this step is very simple. all you have to do is put your left on right foot in hand out up down through!”
  • THINGS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE THAT TEXTURE. NOT. ALLOWED.
  • fidget fidget fidget fidget fidget
  • hey, hand? can you hold something, but just hold it a little bit, instead of in a white-knuckle death grip?  no? oh.
  • what is a facial expression
  • <3<3<3 tagless underwear <3<3<3
  • why do people want to make eye contact anyway, you already know what eyes look like. if you do not: they are round things. white mostly, colorful ring, black in the middle. there.  that should cover you, now let’s have this conversation while looking comfortably over each other’s shoulders.
  • “let’s go to a crowded place with lots of overlapping conversations and people bumping into each other!” or we could not. how about not.
  • this food is Not Allowed.
  • weird stutter that isn’t technically a stutter, it’s more just a total failure to make the word happen
  • SOMETHING. IS. TOUCHING. ME.  RED ALERT ALL HANDS TO BATTLE STATIONS THIS IS NOT A DRILL.
  • handwriting like a can of worms crawling through a pile of sticks

Is that all the time? Because that sounds very familiar but not all of it or all the time. (Paranoia for the loss…)

It’s all the time, mostly. Some things like the stutter come and go, but the majority of the symptoms don’t change. YMMV though, and there are a lot of related developmental/neuro issues that can present similarly.

so like

some days i have doubts about whether i Really Am Autistic, since i never did get formally diagnosed or anything, and i’m So High Functioning (eyeroll) and all that crap.

and other days are like today, where after EIGHTEEN YEARS, first of living in and then regularly visiting the house my parents bought when I was fifteen

after EIGHTEEN YEARS

i finally figured out how you’re supposed to close the door to the shower stall.

because it is a sliding glass door, BUT IT DOES NOT WORK THE WAY SLIDING GLASS DOORS ARE SUPPOSED TO WORK.*

these  days are not doubting days. XD

aprilwitching:

slob lesbian, as opposed to butch or femme:

– my hair is long bc i’m too lazy or apathetic to cut it (or: my hair is short entirely bc it’s more comfortable/less work that way)

– i don’t wear makeup most of the time bc i’m too lazy or apathetic (or: i wear makeup to help conceal the fact that i’m hungover and/or sleep-deprived and/or haven’t showered in a while)

– the “smoky eye” effect is just bc i slept in this eyeliner

– i wear jeans and t-shirts (or one-piece machine-washable dresses) all the time bc that’s what’s easiest

– i don’t shave bc it’s too time consuming (or: i do shave, bc it’s required by my school/workplace/parents, or just bc other people give me less shit that way; or: perma-stubble: girl edition)

– most clothing wrinkled, torn, and/or stained, even if clean

– unintentional ombre hair via very grown out bleach job and very faded technicolor dye

– brain problems/ shit executive function

– permanent eye bags/dark circles

Atypical Autism Traits

kriegsrhetorikinspace:

p-3a-s-life-resources:

The [ original source ] for these is highly gendered.

Under the cut, I am retyping the original source in gender-neutral language, as atypical autism traits do not only appear in girls.

If you are Autistic and your autism matches this profile, it does not mean that you must be a girl; it just means your autism is a kind that often gets missed by traditional diagnostic profiles. These traits were commonly found by researchers in cisgender girls, but they are by no means exclusive to cisgender girls.

The traits are split into four categories.

Keep reading

the “female autism” thing has been making the rounds again… so here’s the less cissexist version

sharkpositivity:

If you look up symptoms of ASD specific to girls one of them is frequently “masculine behavior/dress” or whatever and people love to blame that on autism being an “extreme male brain” but it’s really very easily explained when you consider what femininity is: a set of implicit social rules forced on women. Like, of course autistic girls and women aren’t going to be as successful at performing femininity “correctly.” It doesn’t have to do with the fictitious male brain. It has to do with femininity being inaccessible to people who have difficulty navigating complex and arbitrary social conventions.