Tag: IT ME

adhd gothic

creaturesofnarrative:

jumpingjacktrash:

gorthu:

  • you are holding a thing. its in your hands. you look away for five seconds. you are no longer holding the thing and you cannot find it anywhere. you did not move from your spot. you do not know how this happened
  • you are scrolling down a website. you see something nice and you decide to read more about it. you scroll up to look into it. you see something nice. you decide you want to read more about it. you forgot the first thing you were going to search. you scroll down in hope to remember. you see something nice. you decide you want to read more about it.
  • there is a tear in one of your favourite outfits. you decide you can fix it. you grab the sewing supplies and put them down while you research how to do it. an hour passes. you wonder why there are sewing supplies by your bed.
  • where are your glasses? 
  • there are three cups on your bedside table. you venture into the kitchen. you decide you want some water. you bring it back to your room. there are four cups on your bedside table.
  • youve had a towel around your shoulders for the past three hours. you are going to shower.
  • you’re watching a movie. you pick up your phone to have something to do while you watch the movie. you pause the movie. two days pass. you still havent finished the movie.
  • repeat to yourself so you wont forget, you think. repeat repeat repeat repeat. you no longer remember anything else but it. you look to the side. blue is a nice colour. what were you thinking about?
  • your leg wont stop shaking. it has a life of its own. you are not in control.

you wake from a nightmare, sweating: you dreamed someone erased your whiteboard. you turn on the light and heave a sigh of relief. it’s all still there. the list of things you were going to plant last spring but didn’t. the sweater design you knit one sleeve of. the christmas gift plans from 2009.

~just little dyspraxia things~

pervocracy:

thepolyamorouspolymath:

pervocracy:

  • i did not tell my hand to throw that thing. i told it to gently pick up the thing. but i guess it decided throwing was better.
  • boyfriend has gotten very used to sudden crashes and screams followed by cheerful yell of “i’m okay!”
  • or not.  bones broken so far: collarbone, wrist, finger, rib, toe.
  • elbows & knees bend backwards. good party trick.
  • every dance or aerobics lesson sounds like “this step is very simple. all you have to do is put your left on right foot in hand out up down through!”
  • THINGS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE THAT TEXTURE. NOT. ALLOWED.
  • fidget fidget fidget fidget fidget
  • hey, hand? can you hold something, but just hold it a little bit, instead of in a white-knuckle death grip?  no? oh.
  • what is a facial expression
  • <3<3<3 tagless underwear <3<3<3
  • why do people want to make eye contact anyway, you already know what eyes look like. if you do not: they are round things. white mostly, colorful ring, black in the middle. there.  that should cover you, now let’s have this conversation while looking comfortably over each other’s shoulders.
  • “let’s go to a crowded place with lots of overlapping conversations and people bumping into each other!” or we could not. how about not.
  • this food is Not Allowed.
  • weird stutter that isn’t technically a stutter, it’s more just a total failure to make the word happen
  • SOMETHING. IS. TOUCHING. ME.  RED ALERT ALL HANDS TO BATTLE STATIONS THIS IS NOT A DRILL.
  • handwriting like a can of worms crawling through a pile of sticks

Is that all the time? Because that sounds very familiar but not all of it or all the time. (Paranoia for the loss…)

It’s all the time, mostly. Some things like the stutter come and go, but the majority of the symptoms don’t change. YMMV though, and there are a lot of related developmental/neuro issues that can present similarly.

aprilwitching:

slob lesbian, as opposed to butch or femme:

– my hair is long bc i’m too lazy or apathetic to cut it (or: my hair is short entirely bc it’s more comfortable/less work that way)

– i don’t wear makeup most of the time bc i’m too lazy or apathetic (or: i wear makeup to help conceal the fact that i’m hungover and/or sleep-deprived and/or haven’t showered in a while)

– the “smoky eye” effect is just bc i slept in this eyeliner

– i wear jeans and t-shirts (or one-piece machine-washable dresses) all the time bc that’s what’s easiest

– i don’t shave bc it’s too time consuming (or: i do shave, bc it’s required by my school/workplace/parents, or just bc other people give me less shit that way; or: perma-stubble: girl edition)

– most clothing wrinkled, torn, and/or stained, even if clean

– unintentional ombre hair via very grown out bleach job and very faded technicolor dye

– brain problems/ shit executive function

– permanent eye bags/dark circles

Atypical Autism Traits

kriegsrhetorikinspace:

p-3a-s-life-resources:

The [ original source ] for these is highly gendered.

Under the cut, I am retyping the original source in gender-neutral language, as atypical autism traits do not only appear in girls.

If you are Autistic and your autism matches this profile, it does not mean that you must be a girl; it just means your autism is a kind that often gets missed by traditional diagnostic profiles. These traits were commonly found by researchers in cisgender girls, but they are by no means exclusive to cisgender girls.

The traits are split into four categories.

Keep reading

the “female autism” thing has been making the rounds again… so here’s the less cissexist version

sharkpositivity:

If you look up symptoms of ASD specific to girls one of them is frequently “masculine behavior/dress” or whatever and people love to blame that on autism being an “extreme male brain” but it’s really very easily explained when you consider what femininity is: a set of implicit social rules forced on women. Like, of course autistic girls and women aren’t going to be as successful at performing femininity “correctly.” It doesn’t have to do with the fictitious male brain. It has to do with femininity being inaccessible to people who have difficulty navigating complex and arbitrary social conventions.